adventure time

Oh hello there! Long time no talk?

I'd be lying if I said that I haven't been feeling a bit burned out and overwhelmed lately, but I mean, I basically feel like that all the time. With AP tests coming up, scholarship deadlines, a yearbook deadline (I stayed at school until midnight just to finish making the last yearbook of my high school career #dedication), and just school in general, the blog has been on a bit of a hiatus (again).

A few weeks ago, my brother graciously let me tagalong on a shoot he was doing, which led us on a downtown adventure searching for urban alleyways and cool streets to take pictures. It was only for a few hours, and the weather was ridiculously humid, but being able to have those few hours and spend it with some cool people doing something I really love, was exactly what I needed.

I can't do everything.

It's impossible, I can do everything on my to-do list or do everything I aspire to do. It's not good for my mental, emotional, or physical health. These past few weeks I have been running around like a headless chicken, getting into and doing everything all at once without taking a moment to stop. breathe. and think.

I need to remember to ignore everything every once in a while and take a moment to get lost in something I enjoy. My responsibilities will always be there– my sanity, will not. Especially if I continue to let every aspect of my life stress me out to the max. 

I need to be okay with getting lost, and wandering around. I need to explore every nook and cranny or my neighborhood and city. I need to eat a absolutely delicious and incredibly unhealthy donut for dinner. I need to tell myself that everything is gonna be okay, because once I have a change to rest, and to relax, I can be the best me that I can be. 

And that's always more than enough.

Tell Me Something Good // March

I am 110% convinced that March didn't even happen. I was going through my phone to find pictures for this post and I seriously forgot what all went down in the past month.
Went to a send-off party for a friend who is going into the Air Force. Her send-off party somehow turned into a white converse convention as well.
You can read all about my D.C adventures here! I saw this picture on my phone and was like "OH YEAH. I SAW THE PRESIDENT."
Went to the last Texas Style Council conference. You can read my little recap over here
They're making some major progress on the house! So excited for it to be done in a few months.
Senior prom happened. I'll hopefully have some more pictures in the next week or two. (p.s. how amazing is my dress from lulu's? *insert heart eyes emoji*)
oh, and this happened. Not 100% sure if I can actually make my dreams a reality (because student loans are evil and nyu is $$$$$$), but considering that I didn't think I would even get in, this was a monumental accomplishment and I am so incredibly proud of myself and completely blessed for everything and everyone who got me here. 

TxSC '15

What a weekend.

The last and final Texas Style Council was very different and incredibly special in comparison to the previous conference. As a volunteer, the week was filled with plenty of sweat, mud, labor, and exhaustion, but it was also filled with overwhelming amounts of love, support, inspiration, knowledge, and sisterhood. 

Even four days later I'm still exhausted, and can barely put together the words to make this post, but I can say this: I did not go to TxSC to learn how to gain followers, or how to monetize my blog and work with big companies making big money. In fact, I feel confident saying that no one came to CAMP with that in mind, I went to CAMP seeking a community, and a community is exactly what I got. 

This weekend I connected with some wonderful, amazing, and empowering women. For one of our camp activities, we made two rows of people facing each other and all took turns walking down the line and having words of encouragement whispered into our ears.  and let me tell you, plentyyyy of tears were shed. Bloggers are a magical, extraordinary group of people and people you've know for a while, people you just met, and people who don't even know your name whisper words of encouragement in you ear like "strong", "unconquerable", or "badass" in your ear is a testament to how wonderful this community is. 

To be able to talk about what your passionate about and have others relate to you is a beautiful thing. TxSC reminded me why I started blogging almost 4 years ago and although I left the campgrounds with sore muscles, random scratches, and muddy shoes, I also left with a sense of empowerment, and a whole gang of blogger sisters. 

To sum up the weekend and my general views on blogging: "I'm not interested in competing with anyone. I hope we all make it. " And I hope we all continue to be beautiful, strong, unconquerable, badass women.

Senior Status

Y'all, I graduate high school two months from now.


Seriously, everything is happening way too fast. TxSC CAMP is happening this week (let me know if you're going!) and that will be consuming most of my time this week. Also, this weekend I get to finally know if I got into Boston University or not, and then I go back to school, prom happens right when we get back, and after that I have to start prepping for AP tests, choosing a college to spend the next four years and a crap ton of money on, and before you know it i'll be signing yearbooks, hugging teachers,  and getting ready to walk that stage. I feel like a broken record because I've definitely dwelled on the fact that I have a lot to do in the next few months, and that time will fly by, but I seriously cannot stop freaking out. 

I am beyond excited for college, I'm excited to move to a new city, to have new friends, to have a change in routine, to be able to wear whatever I want (goodbye school uniform!), but that also comes with a lot of scary things and all my worries and throwing me in a tizzy. What if I end up hating the school I choose? What if I can find my way to class, or my roommate hates me, or I can't adjust to the work load, or I miss my parents too much, or I can't make any friends? I'm a total planner, I like knowing what I'm doing, when I'm doing it, who's gonna be there, and everything I need so I can feel prepared and never be caught off guard. I have been wanting to go to college on the east coast for three years now and I have spent hours just making lists and thinking of everything and anything relating to moving to nyc or boston. If you look at any of my journals, you'll find at least 5 lists of what I need to build a solid winter wardrobe for college, and for each list you'll find, there's at least 3 more lists that I've ripped out from my notebook. 

The unfortunate thing (or maybe the wonderful thing?) about life is that nothing goes as planned, and even after hours and hours spent worrying and perfecting all the tiniest of details, something will change, something will come up that will alter everything, and there is nothing I can do to stop that. So as high school comes to an end, I really gotta focus on dealing with the situation I'm in and stop obsessing over the future. Just gotta drink some iced tea, and go with whatever path life takes me because #yolo.

oh, and my brother took these awesome senior pictures, and I may have stepped in an ant pile and got bites all over my foot but it was totally worth it because my brother made me look like a semi decent human being, thanks bro.

Shirt: J.Crew Factory // Jeans: Cotton On // Shoes: H&M // Necklace: Macy's // Sunglasses: J.Crew Factory

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Washington D.C // Through my iPhone

Just got back from my trip to Washington D.C a few days ago where I attended the National League of Cities conference as a part of the Austin Youth Council. I've only been to D.C one other time, and it was a more of a day trip, so I was excited to have another chance to visit the Nation's Capitol and be able to explore a bit more! Day one started bright and early, or should I say dark and early because we left on the Sunday when the time changed. Our flight was at 5am, I needed to be at the airport at 4am, which means that I had to leave the house at 3am and wake up at 2am...which doesn't exist when the time changes, so after a 45min nap, I unwillingly woke up at 1am and got ready for a day filled with conference sessions and sight seeing.
After out first conference session, we walked around the Arlington National Cemetery and got to watch the changing of the guards. The cemetery is vast, but it was really beautiful with the light layer of snow surrounding the burial grounds. 
After waiting in line for two hours, going through security, and nearly falling asleep multiple times during the opening talks, I had the awesome opportunity to see and listen to President Obama's 15min speech announcing his new initiative, TechHire, which is a pretty great idea in my opinion. I would have had the chance to shake his hand, but my mama raised me well, and I didn't think that it was okay to push through the handicapped people in front of me for a simple handshake (however, many other people, adults and youths alike were totally okay with doing so :/)
Me and the rest of the Austin Youth Council posing with Marc Ott, the Austin City Manager, and Clarence Anthony, the CEO of the National League of Cities.
We didn't have much time to spend at the museums, in D.C but we did get to go the the Air and Space museum, as well as the Smithsonian's National Museum of the American Indian which was very interesting and has some stellar architecture
I'm sorta, kinda, really obsessed with the design of the many of the buildings in D.C. This is a pic of the outside of Union Station.
If you ever get the chance, I highly recommend that you go take a tour of the Capitol! I honestly think that it is one of the most intricate and beautiful buildings I've even been inside of. Just look at that ceiling! That chandelier! 
A super sleepy hotel selfie. The weather was cool, so I was able to get away with wearing jeans with a sweater or button down and a light jacket when outside.
Architecture!!! Symmetry!!! Clean lines!!! Industrial feel!!! I love it!!!
For dinner one of the days, we went to a pizza place near our hotel. Pizza was pretty good, and I just love how there was plenty of food places within walking distance of our hotel! (The Omni Shoreham)
Instead of walking through the rain to see the monuments, we opted to join another council on their bus and drive by. I had already seen most of the monuments the last time I was there, and after plenty of walking and being on my feet, sitting in a comfy chair on a bus for a bit was totally up my alley.
When I found out that Iw as going on this trip, the first thing that popped into my mind was that I would be able to go to Nando's again! Nando's is a South African based company that serves Mozambican-Portugese styled chicken and they're famous for their peri-peri (African bird's eye chili) sauce which is to die for. If you're ever in the DMV area, make sure that you stop by and pick up a bottle of some peri-peri sauce!
The four days I spent in D.C were jam-packed and filled with plenty of fun, but I was definitely ready to come back home to Austin! I know that I still haven't seen everything that D.C has to offer, but since I'll be going to college somewhere on the east coast, I totally plan on going back to visit during a long weekend or on break. 

What I'm Packing for D.C

I'm heading over to Washington D.C to attend another National League of Cities conference (last conference recap here) and I put together a little video showing what I'm packing for my four day trip. The weather is supposed to be somewhat nice, with a high in the upper 50s and a low in the 30s, but I wanted to pack items that I knew could easily be layered incase the weather changed abruptly. I packed items that would be nice enough to meet with various local elected officials, but would be comfy enough for all the walking and sight-seeing we'll be doing while there. I hope y'all enjoy the video, I've rekindled my love for video editing, so hopefully this will be the first of many videos!